I remember times of past when my angel told me I wouldn't last. The clocks kept ticking, ticking fast. I had no choice but to hold tight to the mast... And then I thought I found a light to hold me through the forever night. It seemed to me it would always be bright, 'cause happiness is absolute, right? No. I remember when the prominent fear was nobody around, far or near. I couldn't drop a single tear because I simply knew nobody would hear in this cursed year. I know we aren't done, but sometimes I swear I can hear the drum beating closer as closer it comes, but I know theres more here, so I have to run. I can't let it beat me away, not yet; There are so many lines that I haven't said, so many faces I haven't met, but I'll find them soon. I'll find them, I bet. I open my ears and welcome the sound: My favourite frequencies. I was homebound. And then I saw it - it was right there, the image - it told me I still have to care. It could be real one day, and I'll be there. I'll wait. NAQUIS.

Wooden garden illuminated by fireflies Wanna get a look at you before I open my eyes Pillow under my head again, waiting to be collected Am I infected? The mirror won't change without passing of time, but it's fine. I'm just fine. For now I'm fine with breathing fire and ice day and night. Wise up or get stuck drifting My head is getting thicker Everything will come at once (Everything must come at once) I need more; what door are you behind? You set me free. The fire is a solace that you could never give me. My throat is burning and I'm craving you. I know it's all delusions from my soul. Eternal hole I won't feel this when I'm a relic of time, but it's fine. You'll be fine. For now I'm fine with breathing fire and ice day and night. Wise up or get stuck drifting. It's all I want My head is getting thicker Everything will come at once Life on paper My life will waver Life on paper (Everything must come at once) Liquid falls from my head Surprise myself daily 'cause I'm not dead Body shaped crevasse in my bed Surprise myself daily 'cause I'm not dead Liquid falls from my head Surprise myself daily 'cause I'm not dead Body shaped crevasse in my bed Surprise myself daily 'cause I'm not dead "Hey, how'd you get like this? I wanna know."

"It wasn't one thing, I can tell you that." Why can't you take me there? I know I'm wasting time, but I don't care. Stand still. Keep moving. Make this moment worth our time. I'm such a narcissist, but I'm running out of reasons to give a shit. You're so alluring. Is this before or post my prime? I swear it's not my fault; A reason's all I crave, 'cause lately I can't stand the thought of a mile. I'll sweeten up the salt. I'll drive myself insane. I think you'll be stuck in my mind for a while. I'm not who you want to be; My enemy and my best friend is me and I fluctuate between loving and hating my mind. I fantasise my company based on the people that I see on T.V, and they're the reason why I'm falling so far behind - well I swear it's not my fault; A reason's all I crave, 'cause lately I can't stand the thought of a mile. Will I sweeten up the salt, or will I drive myself insane? I think you'll be stuck in my mind for a while. Well maybe it's my fault; I should just be more brave, then maybe I could stand the thought of a mile. Did I sweeten up the salt, or did I drive myself insane? Well, all I know is I think you'll be stuck in my mind for a while. It's hard to sweeten salt when you drive yourself insane. I think you'll be stuck in my mind for a while.

Do you know his name, or do you not remember anymore? Too distracted by what you adore? That's fine. It happens all the time, and while it's no surprise to him, he can't help but wish it wasn't the case. He's far too good at pushing people away then getting mad at them for leaving - That's why he needs you more than ever right now, but feel free to ignore. Go and enjoy yourself more while he lies and rots. Who is he to tell you not to? And this one would have been for you had we not halted halfway through, but I can't seem to get my fix when I've still had too many hits. I don't think that I belong here, but I can't shed a single tear. Will this all change when I grow? Oh, at this rate I won't ever know "Hey, you should listen to yourself. You say that the problem with people is that they don't care. That makes no sense. You know why?"

No, my dearest friend. I wish that I could agree, but I don't think you're even trying to fill or see this gap inside of me. I've tried to guide you and help you see it many times before, but it just never seems like you ever invested anything more than them... Oh well, maybe it's down to my actions - I always seem so keen to self sabotage my own satisfaction. I don't possess the power to leave my mind well pleased, so I guess I'll just learn to live with all these fantasies. For now, at least - There are so many... "I feel depressed. I know I should be happy, but I'm not." "Well, as they say on T.V., the mere fact that you realise you need help indicates that you are not too far gone. I think we'd better pinpoint your fears - if we can find out what you're afraid of, we can label it."

Hi, nice to meet you, welcome to my heart. Ignore the fact that it's mostly dark. How long do you think you'll be staying for? Until you see me as just a chore? Friday nights are nothing but a fight but I won't cry, don't even need to try. I'm in my mind, I left my soul behind. I think I left it on the ground last night... I can feel this is going wrong, yet I knew it wouldn't last the long run. Whatever happened to unwinding, having fun? 'Cause now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I- I'm scared as fuck. Feel it coming back again. Used up my luck. Was it something that I said? Throat set on fire - guess I'm right back here again. Hands split wide open. Write this down, pass me the pen. I thought my people weren't hard to find It's cold, how about you just come inside? We can sit on the couch and just vibe all night. Say you're just like me, but avoid my eyes. I can feel this is going wrong, yet I knew it wouldn't last the long run. Whatever happened to unwinding, having fun? 'Cause now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I thought. Yeah, now the end is more apparent than I- I said "What am I doing with this future? Is it worth it if I can't smile? Will I feel this for a while? Will I reach the clouds?" I said "What am I doing with this future? Is it worth it if I can't smile? Will I feel this for a while? Will I reach the clouds?"

"You told me once to forget the past, 'cause it doesn't matter, but you're the one still tied to the past-" "Look at my eyes- One of them is a fake because I lost it in an accident. Since then, I've been seeing the past in one eye, the present in the other." I'm waiting on you now, but I won't waste time with my head in the clouds or I won't come down. I need to find my sound, but I'd rather bury my head in the ground. Let myself drown. I don't think you feel that way, but I'll deal with this shit another day. Find myself running outside to bathe in rain so I can find better words to describe this pain. It's like I only want you after a few years when I think you can stop the blood pouring out my ears. "Well, I think it would be better if you hid your tears for me." Well here I am, darling, how you wanted me. I'm sick of you and I think it every night, but I'm still not willing to fight 'cause the moon turns blue when I'm holding you. So, I'll come through when you need something new. I'm waiting on you now, but I won't waste time with my head in the clouds or I won't come down, no. I need to find my sound, but I'd rather bury my head in the ground. Let myself drown. Don't you dare point your eyes at me when you're spelling out how it's meant to be. Please tell me, how clear am I supposed to see when it's fireflies, odes and fantasies? Maybe I'm trapped in my past, but you're always there, and the funniest part is you never fucking cared that I was left with these images that I could not bare of you. This what you meant when you wanted something new? You would only understand if I let you in my land, 'cause the words won't do it justice, my friend. All the things we think we are are not present from the start, but we can work to cure all our battlescars. If you just believed in me, we'd erase the memories and then maybe we would not want to leave. But until that day comes by, I won't look you in the eye, but I'll keep you with me until I di- ("What are you going to do? Just throw your life away like it was nothing?" "I'm not going there to die. I'm going to find out if I'm really alive.") "You-you care?" "Damn right."